Hey Everyone:


Its been almost a year since I wrote in this journal... but things have been ok for the most part..... Its really crazy for the past 6 months, ...back in august i had a wreck...this woman hit me and messed me and my car up pretty bad......i got me another car. its a nissan sentra... its a nice car... with the bluetooth and other special things to it..
then Oct......my grandma had a really bad stroke ...and it was just bad. then we had to put her in a nursing home. i went and saw her and its soooo sad to see her ...and when i leave, she begs me not to go and just screams and cries...

I just broke down last night,
my dad got remarried:(:(
my back feels like its never gettn better,
one of my friends passed away this week......
and im falln away from the group for certain reasons,
and ...........in the back of my mind, i will always long for that one special guy in my life. But ive decided that im not good enough to deserve that kinda "Love" .....it really hurts sometimes.... Greggie, Tim, and Dave well they all talked to me and everything ....but i dont know....

Dave told me last night "he was in love with me" and for some reason, i dont know y, but i dont know if i can actually believe that. I guess its b/c i dont believe it will last or either i will get hurt..... He came to see me at the store today......and it was nice to see him again.... who really knows what "love" is all about.

Buddy called me today.....wanting me to go to the beach and work for the rest of the week and i knew i couldnt b/c i have to work at my school job. damn, i miss that beach!!!:( maybe!!!!!!! i could go down this weekend, maybe;) thats an idea.
so buddy put me in charge of the store this week:( :) goodie for me

i guess.......


***** I dont care whos wrong or right, i dont really wanna fight no more** lets sleep on it tonight** i just dont wanna fight anymore** is this time for letting go***you look at me the wrong way, and i start to cry****

* i saw ur sky fall down today......i never felt so helpless....... if u ever need me u know where to find me**Im right by ur side*
**So hard to find a true friend in this world,** And it's so hard to find someone you would Truly give the world for*

Well those are some lyrics about how im feeling right now.........
well.... nothing much has been going on ....but i did get to keep my little cuzin on Friday evening....we had some much fun...... we went to china buffet, alltel, walmart and mcdonalds, and watched a lil of her movie and it was really fun....




welll
thats about it for me

plz comment,

and oh yeah i was n wreck since chad wanted me to mention
that... im still hurtn but the PT is gonna find out whats wrong with me.

booo..

*D*

leave sum comments.

Well hello..
its been quite a while since I have wrote. I have been really busy lately..
Working two jobs... trying to go to the beach as many times as possible...and ending a love that my heart couldnt take.

Wesley... * was a great contributor to my journey in life. I wanna regret going to state fair and meeting him. But God wouldnt want me to do that. He loved me with as much love and joy as i wanted....But sometimes life gets so busy to that point ..u forget u are in a relationship.....i would of gave my everything to be with him....but sometimes * ur everything* isnt enough. He showed me to never forget the love for the country life..and that i am beautiful even though im still a country girl.........* as im typing this.. tears just surround me...b/c of all the beautiful memories he gave me.. I cant regret anything as beautiful as he gave me... theres no denying that.....

Well work is going good, pretty busy and everything... i feel like im running in a million different directions and no time to take and stop everything for a second.. its go here, be here, and so i needed sum time to slow down! i need to do that once in a while....lol..

I turned 25 on April 17. Wow. I didnt think id still be single and still be workin my ass off .....I have a lot of great friends and wonderful people in my life.


Mom and Dad's divorce ended this week, actually last week ...on my 25th bday..its kinda a sad time and a happy time... but it feels like things are really ...going fast.. i cant believe my mom and dad are actually divorced.. its kinda overwhelming...but u know its a God thing.. if its meant to be....its meant to be i reckon...  Sometimes i wish my life was different but u give and u take...?? hmmm...


David... i thank God i found you back in my life again.. its weird sometimes ..how u lose touch with people and i thank my lucky stars that we got to have another chance.. this time ur not leaving me.. Ill make u promise that... and i promise too.



But i guess now is the time to end this..

Chad...****Thank you for covering for me at the school* I definitely owe you something back****** You ROCK!!!!!!
PR rocks the Boat!

leave whatever u wish..........


* You dont know me.. you dont wear my chains*

* I think ill start a new life... where no one knows my name..



in the light of the sun, is there anyone? oh it has begun...
oh dear you look so lost, eyes are red and tears are shed,
this world you must've crossed...you said...

you don't know me, you don't even care,
you don't know me, you don't wear my chains...

essential and appealed, carry all your thoughts across
an open field,
when flowers gaze at you...they're not the only ones who cry
when they see you
you said...

you don't know me, you don't even care,
you don't know me, you don't wear my chains...

she said i think i'll go to boston...
i think i'll start a new life,
i think i'll start it over, where no one knows my name,
i'll get out of california, i'm tired of the weather,
i think i'll get a lover and fly em out to spain...
i think i'll go to boston,
i think that i'm just tired
i think i need a new town, to leave this all behind...
i think i need a sunrise, i'm tired of the sunset,
i hear it's nice in the summer, some snow would be nice...
boston...where no one knows my name...


I THINK I NEED A NEW TOWN TO LEAVE THIS BEHIND"""***

Hey there everyone:
soooo its been a while, a LONG while.
SOOOO much has happened since October 14...or whatever ...for the complete better of my life. well, when i was in Raleigh at the State Fair. I met someone that i never knew existed in my life... I met Wesley, I say Wesley and somehow i know my life is that much happier...... He is so much like me.. liking the country life and stuff. We have been dating for a little over a month now and wow! WOW is all i can say.......he makes me smile and he does the sweetest things for me. he is someone i can honestly say makes me happy! We are just all about each other. and I can say IM IN LOVE !!!!! LOVE! is a sweet thing!!!!!!!! But im so happy and i couldnt get any happier than i already am. I LOVE THE HECK OUTTA YOU WESLEY!!!
Also, Im leaving Dec. 29- Jan.1 to go to McGrady, NC ( Near Boone) to spend sum time on the farm.... living the country life! My favorite kind of  life to live!:) woohoo....

There we are! HAppy and Happier than I think we both
have ever been. I love you!
So if u think im bored, its probably cuz im without my wesley...
I spend every freakin wakin moment with him as much as i posssibly can.

So there is my little update of my life...

Grandma is doing ok..... and today was my last day of work....so im off for like 2 1/2 weeks of vacation! HELL YEA!

I love ya'lll

remember the reason for Christmas ..it is CHRIST who died for us!
John 3:16.........

MERRY CHRISTMAS AND HAPPY NEW YEARS.. lookin forward to 07' ...the best one yet!

*D*A*Y*N*A*

Well hey there everyone:
ive been gone a little bit. Ive been so busy workin and stuff.
***** I really wanted to go to the beach this weekend but I got sick..and my blood pressure got really low and stuff. Im waiting to hear back from the results and stuff  :-/
Court was Tuesday on...the day I got sick! blah.... Well i really dont feel like talkin about that right now......


Work work work.... I feel like thats all i ever do.. oh well.. I am feelin better than i was ..but i dont think im gonna go to the beach like i planned ..oh well maybe another time..before Christmas...:)

""""These sticks and stones may break me, but the words u said just tore my heart into...""""

Life has been good for the most part since me and G broke up... it was causing too many problems for me and my best guy friend....I feel like a huge 300 pound weight has been taken off me ...

Me n Chris went to the zoo a couple weekends ago... it was so much fun seein those polar bears and stuff.awww i love the zoo...wish it wasnt turning really cold though.

Well next weekend is State Fair. im so excited about going...but I do need to get like a bunch of sleep..................... and take care of myself so i dont get sick.....

but all in all , i cant wait for State Fair.:) wooo hooo...............




"Can't Break It To My Heart"

I've never felt as helpless as I do today
My world just fell around me as I watched you drive away
There's nothing left between us somehow we've grown apart
Cause I've got it through my head I just can't break it to my heart
I can't believe this is me on the hurtin' side of pain
Sifting through the ashes still tryin' to find a flame
But the flames have turned to embers left glowing in the dark
Yes I've got it through my head I just can't break it to my heart

If I could Lord knows I would spin back the hands of time
And piece these scattered memories that are cluttered in my mind
Pick up where we left off and make a brand new start
Cause I've got it through my head I just can't break it to my heart
I can't believe this is me...
Oh I've got it through my head I just can't break it to my heart
I just can't I just can't break it to my heart
I just can't I just can't break it to my heart
I just can't break it to my heart



so thats just about how i feel but here is another one that really awesome...


She was stormin' through the house that day,
An' I could tell she was leavin'.
An' I thought: "Aw, she'll be back,"
Till she turned around an' pointed at the wall an said:

"That picture from our honeymoon,
"That night in Frisco Bay:
"Just give it away."
She said: "Give it away."
"An' that big four-poster king-size bed,
"Where so much love was made:
"Just give it away."
She said: "Just give it away."

"Just give it away.
"There ain't nothin' in this house worth fightin' over.
"Oh, an' we're both tired of fightin' anyway,
"So just give it away."

So I tried to move on,
But I found that each woman I held,
Just reminded me of that day.
Hmmm.

When that front door swung wide open,
She flung her diamond ring:
Said: "Give it away."
"Just give it away."
An' I said: "Now, honey, don't you even want,
"Your half of everything."
She said: "Give it away."
Just give it away.

Just give it away.
There ain't nothin' in this house worth fightin' over.
Oh, an' we're both tired of fightin' anyway,
So just give it away.

So I'm still right here where she left me,
Along with all the other things,
She don't care about anymore.
Mmmm.

Like that picture from our honeymoon,
That night in Frisco Bay:
She said: "Give it away."
Well, I can't give it away.
An' that big four-poster king-size bed,
Where all our love was made:
She said: "Give it away."
Well, I can't give it away.

I've got a furnished house, a diamond ring,
An' a lonely broken heart,
Full of love,
An' I can't even give it away.


* try to catch me ' Ridin Dirty'

*D* ---leave it if u wish

Well its been a heck of two or three weeks... I dont know really what life has in store for me really. I spent a great Saturday with Chris....it was awesome. we just hung out and had a bunch of fun. I hated it bad cuz i missed the womens retreat....but me n Chris went to the auto show! MUCHO FUN:) and then we ate at this carribean resturant it was pretty good and i would so go there again.

Me and Mike broke up. but it was for the best .. i mean i wish him happiness and all that but it just was something that couldnt go any longer. I hate to be a pain in the ass but there was no connection and i dont really want a boyfriend right now. Cuz if God supplys him.. then its gonna be a risk im willing to take for a lifetime.. but it has to be the greatest risk ever.

But God has his time and place for everything includin a soul mate for me somewhere. Chris is like my best guy friend.. its so nice to have someone understand u like he understands me. and we have the best times together........anyways. enough about Chris n me.............

Work is going ok im so busy it seemss like.. and everything just seems so busy lately. ehhh.. But thats the way life goes. u have like friday thru sunday to hang out and stuff. But yea. when i find the guy that im more than willing to take a risk for .. then ill be in more than a happy state.

I got to see Makayla this past sunday. It was so good to see her again  I miss her so much ...and LeAnn told me to come and visit her anytime.. She is so precious. Makayla is and i cant believe how big she is gettin. awwwww.:) anyways.. i was so excited to see her..  ((((((Me n Kids)))))))
..... i cant get enough of them at work then i spend time with em on the weekends.


One Step Up

Woke up this mornin

The house was cold

Checked the furnace she wasn't burnin'

Went out and hopped in my old Ford

Hit the engine but she ain't a turnin

Given each other some hard lessons lately

But we aren't learnin

Same sad story thats a fact

Once step up and two steps back



Heard on a wire outside my motel room but he aint singin

Girl in white outside a church in june

but the church bells they aint ringin'

Sittin here in this bar tonight

and all i'm thinkin is

How the same old story same old act

One step up and two steps back 



Its the same thing night all night

Whos wrong and baby whos right

Another fight and i slam the door on

Another battle and I dirty a little one

When I look at myself I dont see the man I wanted to be

somewhere along the line I slipped off track

livin one step up and two steps back



Theres a girl across the bar

I get the message shes sendin

Mmm she aint lookin too married

We well honey I pretended

Last night I dreamed I held you in my amrs 

the music was never endin 

we danced as the evening sky faded to black

movin one step up and two steps up

(one step up and two steps back)

one step up and two steps back

(one step up and two steps back)

One step up and two steps back

(one step up and two steps back)

one step up and two steps back

I Cant Go there......(thats right)

Anson County..ya herd?


You know that restaurant on highway 1

With the key lime pie that song the sand and the sun

Where we ran in our barefeet

Built a castle on the beach

Just the wind,the rocks, the waves and you and me



[Chorus:]

I can't go there

Cuz thats just too much us

I can't go there

I still feel your touch

Theres places in my heart and head that feel as empty as our
bed

So most nights i dont even walk upstairs

Cuz I can't go there



Remember San Francisco on that cable car

Our reflection in the window of that store

How we danced the night away

With the lights out on the bay

Then wound up in a blanket on the floor



[Chorus:]

I can't go there

Cuz 'Friscos too much us

I can't go there

I still feel your touch

Now theres places in my heart and head that 

still feel as empty as our bed

So most nights i dont even walk upstairs

Cuz i can't go there



If it was only Florida or California 

Maybe I could let myself move on

But its everywhere we've been

And everywhere I turn

I can't love again 

Cuz i've learned



That I can't go there 

Its somethin i can't do

I can't go there

I'll run into you

I can't go there



[Tim Mcgraw:]

When the sun shines, when it rains

Christmas parties, football games



[Kenny:] I can't go there



[Tim:] Winter, summer, fall or spring

I see you in everything



I can't go there..

Its too much us

I can't go there

If I dont love u like u deserve...
If i dont stop every tear ur crying..
if i dont make ur life a heaven on this earth.. I'll die tryin....

U dont touch me anymore....
U never say the words i love you.
U just sit behind ur papers...
silence cuts me like a razor...
Im gonna leave u maybe someday soon..when i can give up this fight..
Maybe Not tonight..
We dont talk much anymore..not the same way we used to..
whenever i reach out to hold u u turn away what am i suppose to do.
im gonna say goodbye when the moments right ...like an eagle i will fly..

U hold me in ur arms so deep
wanna feel u breathin on my skin
we fell outta love, we can fall back in??!
U never look at me that way..some many times i long to say..
u used to brush the hair off my face...u used to make me feel like someone.
U were my best friend...my one and only love.. and ur still the only one...
just as im leavin u..u walk in the room. i see the flicker in ur eyes..................


Leave it
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Hey Everyone...
Its me Dayna...
Ive been quite a busy person lately. School just started back on August 25th. I am gettin a lot of hours in plus im working at my other job. So thats keepin me busy.

I have other news, Im dating the guy named Mike, but since I know two Mikes. I'll call him G. :) He is so cool, hes a great christian guy and he treats me so good. I think my life is turning around hopefully.. for me.

My moms been pretty sick, so i stay around the house, some. Court went on last week... so this past weekend I went to visit my friend, Jenny, up in Raleigh. That was really awesome.. except for before I left, I dropped my cell phone in the toilet! MAN !! I WAS SO MAD!!!!!!!

I drove up there by myself and I didnt have any problems at all! so woohoo for me!

Life is pretty good, God is teachin me a lot of things.. and though its hard.. I keep on going cuz I know things will eventually get better one day..:)

SOME HEARTS


I've never been the kind that you'd call lucky
Always stumbling' around in circles
But I must have stumbled into something
Look at me
Am I really alone with you
I wake up feeling like my life's worth living
Can't recall when I last felt that way
Guess it must be all this love you're giving
Never knew never knew it could be like this
But I guess

Some hearts
They just get all the right breaks
Some hearts have the stars on their side
Some hearts,
They just have it so easy
Some hearts just get lucky sometimes
Some hearts just get lucky, lucky sometimes

Now who'd have thought someone like you could love me
You're the last thing my heart expected
Who'd have thought I'd ever find somebody
Someone who someone who makes me feel like this
Well I guess

Some hearts
They just get all the right breaks
Some hearts have the stars on their side, yes
Some hearts,
They just have it so easy
Some hearts just get lucky sometimes
Some hearts just get lucky sometimes
Ohhhhhh

Even hearts like mine
Get lucky, lucky sometimes

Even hearts like mine
Ohhhhhhhh

Some hearts,
They just get all the right breaks
Some hearts have the stars on their side
Some hearts,
They just have it so easy
Some hearts just get lucky sometimes

Some hearts
They just get all the right breaks
Some hearts have the stars on their side, yes
Some hearts,
They just have it so easy
Some hearts just get lucky sometimes
Some hearts just get lucky sometimes

Cigarettes..

Got my headlights shinin
down an old dirt road
Smoke my cigarettes
I should quit, I know

Radios playin
Old country songs
Someones savin, someones cheatin
On, on, and on

Think I might like
the quiet nights
of this empty life

(Chorus;)
Someday maybe sombody will love me like I need
Someday I won't have to prove to somebody who'll see all my worth
But until then I'll do just fine on my own
With my cigarettes and this old dirt road

See I left another
good man tonight
I wonder if he'll miss me
lord knows I tried

But I think that maybe
the thing that I did wrong
Was put up with his bullshit
for far too long

Think I might like
the quiet nights
of this empty life

(Chorus)

I ain't gonna sleep
I don't wanna dream
about the things that I use to need
I ain't gonna cry
Or go on livin lies
I'm just gonna drive

(Chorus)

'Cause someday maybe somebody will love me
Someday I won't have to prove
All my worth
But until then I'll do just fine on my own
with my cigarettes
Oh oh

(Chorus)

well ive been told to write a real entry.. so here it is.
ENjoy!

*D*

Time for a new survey...

1. What curse word do you use the most?
im not quite sure....

2.) Do you own an XBOX?
nah....wanted one..but no

3.) Who on your Myspace "Top Friends" do you talk to the most?
Laura, Jenny, Chris

4.) What time is your alarm clock set for?
6:30 am    

5.) What color is your room?
White...

6.) Flip flops or sneakers?
Flipflops most definitely.

7.) Would you rather take the picture or be in the picture?
both i guess.

8.) What was the last movie you watched?
it was John Tucker Must Die

9.) Do any of your friends have children?
Yep sure do

10.) Has anyone ever called you lazy?
yeah..my mom...but i never work with her..

11.) Do you ever take medication to help you fall asleep faster?
yeah...

12.) What CD is currently in your CD player?
SheDaisy-Fortunetellers Melody

13.) Do you prefer regular or chocolate milk?
Strawberry

14.) Has anyone told you a secret this week?
probably.

15.) Have you ever given someone a tattoo?
Nah..but i gave this guy a bloody nose one time.

16.) Who was the last person you called/texted?
Called? Caleb  Texted?Mike.

17.) Do you think people talk about you behind your back?
Yea, there jealous of me.

18.) Did you watch cartoons as a child?
Oh yah..too much.

19.) How many siblings do you have?
1 older bro.....probably one or two more i dont know about

20.) Are you shy around the opposite sex?
sometimes.

21.) What movie do you know every line to?
Dude, Wheres My Car

22.) Do you own any band t-shirts?
No....

23.) What is your favorite salad dressing?
Ranch

24.) Do you read for fun?
Probably the bible

25.) Do you cry a lot?
well if certain people break my heart, mainly about my mom and dad, and my grandpa.....

27.) Do you have a desktop computer or a laptop.
Yeah, I got a Macbook

28.) Are you currently wanting any piercings or tattoo?
Yeah...probably.

29.) What is the weather like?
Humid and Rainy.

30.) Would you ever date someone with tattoos?
I did one time and we were basically engaged...

31.) Is sex before marriage wrong?
Yes, but sometimes it happens before u know it.

32.) When was the last time you slept on the floor?
when i cried myself to sleep last night.

33.) How many hours of sleep do you need to function?
8 or more...

35.) Are your days full and fast-paced?
Yes, im a child nutrition assistant manager for a elementary school

36.) Do you pay attention to calories on the back of packages?
ehh..thats my job!!!

37.) Are you picky about spelling and grammar?
Nah.....

38.) Have you ever been to Six Flags or Cedar Point?
Neither..nah.

39.) Do you get along better with the same or opposite sex?
i get along much better with guys!!!:)

40.) Do you like cottage cheese?
EUGH>

41.) Do you sleep on your side, stomach, or back?
On my stomach

42.) Have you ever bid on something from ebay?
Nope...

43.) Do you enjoy giving hugs?
sometimes.

44) What was the last song you sang out loud?
Scars, by Papa Roach

45) What is your favorite TV show?
The OC....and Classic Cars

46) Last time you had butterflies in your stomach?
last night when i cried like for 5 hours...

47) What's one thing you wish you had?:
A country singer

48) Where do you wish you were right now?
In Raliegh away from MONROE!!:(

49) Do you wanna have kids?
one day with the right man, a good man, a honest man and one that exists!

50) How many people do you think will reply to this?
NOTHING.. No one .. its a FLIIPPPIN SURVEYYYYYY


another one...*HA*

Tomorrow is my first day of work at Porter Ridge Elementary.....

Danny.....well what can i say about that?
im not sure right now...but im meetin with him sometime soon.

Right now, Im kinda n this mode where I like where Im at right
now and things r right now ok. Chris has been tellin me u know what
just be happy with what you got. Im learnin to listen to people that
I really dont wanna listen too. Its like whoa...Dayna... ur really starting to
change....

Well.. Bible study w/ the singles group is at Col. Beatty was on Saturday evening. it was really cool, we talked about our financial problems to God and tithing right to Him.

God is amazing. this guy named Caleb ..well he contacted me like after 6 years with no contact.. and i graduated high school with him .. its cool to get in touch with people that you have no idea what there up to now. which is really cool:)

I met the new assistant principal at Porter Ridge Elem. He seems cool, so thats all ill say about that.

Im not all too excited about starting back to work but i need that paycheck and i love those kids too. and Life is ok for right now...

So im workin basically all weekend...BLAh....oh well its gonna be alright..



Once in A Lifetime.....

i can see it in your eyes and feel it in your touch i know that you're scared but you've never been this loved it's a long shot, baby, i know it's true. but if anyone can make it, im betting on me and you. just keep on moving into me, i know you're gonna see the best is yet to come don't fear it now, we're going all the way. the sun is shining on a brand new day. it's a long way down and it's a leap of faith but we're never giving up cuz i know we've got a once in a lifetime love everybody's looking for what we've found some wait their whole life and it never comes around. so don't hold back now. just let go of all you've ever known you can put your hand in mine. don't fear it now, we're going all the way. the sun is shining on a brand new day. it's a long way down and it's a leap of faith but we're never giving up cuz i know we've got a once in a lifetime love i close my eyes and i see you standing right there i say 'i do' and they're throwing the rice in our hair. well the first one's born and a brother comes along, and he's got your smile. i've been looking back on the life we've had i'm still by your side. don't fear it now, we're going all the way. the sun is shining on a brand new day. it's a long way down and it's a leap of faith but we're never giving up cuz i know we've got a once in a lifetime love.

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Bring It on Back

What if I said I wanted to hold you
For more than just one night
Oooh, what if I said, I said
I wanted to show you
It all, it all, it all
Is gonna be alright

I'm a good thing
Make sure you know it
You only get one shot
Baby, don't blow it
I'm the green, green grass
As far as your big brown eyes can see
And if you leave
You'll wanna bring it on back to me, yeah

I know, I know, I know I ain't easy
To get a handle on
It don't take more than enough to please me
But I don't wanna, don't wanna wait to long

'Cause I'm a good thing
Make sure you know it
You only get one shot
Baby, don't blow it
Yeah, I'm the green, green grass
As far as your big brown eyes can see
And if you leave
You'll wanna bring it on back to me, yeah
Oh, oh, yeah

Open the door your ready to walk through
I'm where you prayer was meant to land
Oooh, give me the holes in your heart
I promise that I will do anything, everything
You know I can

Look at me, baby
I'm a good thing
Make sure you know it, yeah
You only get one shot
Baby, don't blow it
Yeah, I'm the green, green grass
As far as your big brown eyes can see
And if you leave, oh, if you leave
You'll wanna bring it on back to me, yeah
Bring it on back to me
Ooooh, yeah, yeah, yeah
Yeah, yeah, yeah
Bring it back, bring it back, yeah
Bring it on back to me
Oooh, whoa

But anyways, thats about all the time I have for a journal entry thing:)

leave me sum comments
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